As an overall summary of everything that has occurred between the time I wrote my previous journal and the the journal I am currently fulfilling at this very moment in time.. things have yet again been an unsteady journey through the seemingly daunting pathway towards my forever alternating future, but I needn't say this out of morbidity, it's my belief in chaos theory.
It has been 5 years now since my eczema underwent a turning point for the worst.. I have allowed myself to become dominated by the negativity it generates out of my persistent anxieties which resulted in a steep drop in my self esteem, day by day opportunities came and went as I confined myself to my bedroom not caring about my future and relying on a miraculous blessing to take away this seemingly everlasting curse that just appeared out of nowhere. But that was the past, more or less anyway.. things have improved greatly now, so I am glad to say that this journal is not entirely just a cynical rant on how unfair life can be, because going though all that has made me a stronger person than before.. and contemplating what I have achieved during the past 5 years I am happy that I never gave up on hope. My eczema is slowly improving and life is looking brighter by the minute.. I am hoping to go back to college again next year once I have stabilized my condition even further to a manageable degree in order to cope with college work. I am passionate at what I do.. I adore science, astronomy and mathematics and I hope to become an astrophysicist one day. My artistic skills are not all that proficient but I do have an imagination, which is essential for to be a scientist as well for an artist. And many artwork here has inspired me profoundly.. I commend you all for your incredible talent.. hopefully one day I can express my imagination to the world :3